Now I’m going down to a three-day week, I’ve worked my final Friday in the NHS.
It doesn’t feel like the relief I thought it would be as I’m now wondering how I’m going to work ten hour shifts next week.
It might only be for three days, but it’s going to be an early start and a late finish.
But I’ll adapt. It’s not really worth worrying about.
It does feel, though, as if I’m in a state of limbo, slowly leaving the NHS and not quite sure where I’ll go next.
I’m going to be continuing with my CIPD Human Resources course one my two days off, as that’s definitely something I want to do in the future.
My frustration, really, is being tied down to the traditional 9-5, trading time for money, when I’d much rather be running my own small business from home, and ideally earning more than the just-above-minimum wage salaries of the NHS.
I’ve mentioned before liking the idea of selling stationery, but after receiving a sample order from a print on demand company, I realised that the products would be of poor quality.
I’m still interested in the idea but I’m not quite sure if I’d be able to find the funds to invest in it.
I can’t break out of a minimum wage job while on minimum wage.
But you have to invest the time in something you’re passionate about and that you could do for the long haul, and I adore journals and notebooks. Writing is what I have always enjoyed and I love good quality stationery.
For years while in therapy I regularly documented my thoughts in notebooks and it was hugely beneficial.
I kept all of them for decades, only deciding last year that it was time to throw them away and move on from the more difficult times in my life.
I’m not going to abandon the idea just because it’s more difficult than I expected.
Writing this has made me even more determined, and left me feeling a lot more positive as a result.
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