At 51, there’s a sense that I am running out of time if I want to get where I want to be in life.
I’m not exactly sure where that is, but I know it’s not working 9-5 five days a week.
I want more freedom and control over my time. I want to spend part of my week working for someone else, and the rest working for myself. I also want to earn a lot more than my current NHS wage.
When it comes to working for someone else, I have HR in mind so I was relieved today to submit the first assignment of the CIPD Level 5 People Management course.
The next part covers critical thinking and decision-making, and measuring the impact and value of people practice, and I’ll get started on that tomorrow.
I’m hoping this assignment does not take as long as the last. The fact I’ve reduced my working hours should make studying a lot easier.
I celebrated with a Costa hot chocolate and a Bakewell tart, which were both delicious.
After a period of restriction, when your body is craving nutrition, all food takes incredible, but this evening I am definitely feeling some food guilt.
It’s difficult when there’s a voice in your head telling you to restrict and lose weight. It does drive me mad at times, but I’m happier and a lot more productive when I feed my brain, and I don’t feel I have enough time left to waste it starving myself.
That’s the logical part of my brain talking, but sometimes the illogical part takes over, so it can be a daily battle.
I was appalled today to hear there are such things as ‘Ana Coaches’ – basically people who help youngsters starve themselves.
That’s horrific behaviour that could be attractive to those that are vulnerable to an eating disorder, and could ultimately cost them their life.
I heard about them when an Anorexia sufferer on Instagram asked one of these individuals to stop contacting her.
It’s dreadful to think that someone like that would reach out to someone who is already unwell and try and encourage her to lose more weight. I don’t know how these people can live with themselves.
But it’s not a day for negativity. It’s a day to celebrate competing my assignment and becoming a step closer to starting a career in HR.